I’m giving excuses to fail.
I got a new job, an awesome one. I traveled a whole month and received training every day.
Externally, it looks like that I’m rocking. A new job, Praxis, meeting new people and posting on my blog. Internally, I’ve been failing.
In every interaction of life, we face choices. It’s up to you to decide how you’ll feel about it. Will you be upset or happy? Will you be angry or calm?
I’ve been choosing to be a victim. Last year, I took a different path. I decided to leave college. What I didn’t expect was the impact that would do on me. I left my friends, girlfriend, graduation, routine, sports, projects, my bubble.
After three months in Peru, I came back to Brazil, since then, I’ve been lost. I started a job at a startup and left it. I started Praxis and I feel that I’m not all-in. I started a new job and I feel that I could be doing more. Every area of my life is incomplete. I know I can do more, but what am I doing instead? I’m lamenting my choices. I’m thinking about the ‘What Ifs’? What if I never left college? What if I didn’t break up with my girlfriend? How would life be if I were still in college?
I know that I’m on the right path. I know that college wasn’t providing me enough value. I know that I want Praxis and I’m loving my job. Even though, it isn’t easy.
The most important takeaway from what I’m experiencing now is that life hits you hard.
“are you gonna cry and tell everything to your mama?”
Life is asking you this. I’ve been crying.
But now, I decided to get up and choose my destiny. It’s up to me. Lay down and cry or get up and rock. I choose to rock.